Swami’s Evil First Assistant: What Makes Sharon Ward Tick?

By Ruth Graham

Why is she glued to Michael’s side?

What lies behind her dead eyes and gloating, ice-cold, self-satisfied grin?

Why would she grin wickedly when her rottweilers would growl at anyone who came near?

I don’t have all the answers, but I know Sharon Ward better than most.

I knew Sharon better than Swami Chetanananda. I saw her one on one much more than the Swami.

Former members of this cult said they fear her because of her “high” standing among law enforcement and rescue operators.

Sharon told me she never mentions her spiritual practices, or that she lives in a commune to “redneck,” “republican,” people she works with in law enforcement. They wouldn’t understand, she explained, because they are beings of lower vibration.

I was a “being of lower vibration” too since I was a low-level laborer at the ashram under her control.

Sharon Ward is also an attorney. I understand she became an attorney to serve her master, Swami Chetanananda, and help him cover up his fraud, drug binges, and abuses of women.

Her name is the notify party and executive of shell businesses set up to serve this cult in
Gold Beach.

She sometimes travels with the Swami and sometimes stays behind to oversee the ashram when he is gone. She oversees the intake of “new” students and handles expulsions.

She bullies and scares people who want to speak out against them. She gets women to sign NDAs after the Swami rapes or strangles them.

Sharon reminds me of Osho’s right-hand woman, Ma Anand Sheela.

Ma Anand Sheela, 72, managed the Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh ashram in Wasco County, Oregon from 1981 through 1985. In 1986, she was convicted for attempted murder and assault for her role in the 1984 Rajneeshee bio-terror attack. She served 29 months in federal prison.

At one time, I admired Sharon for being one of the few female spiritual teachers.

I tried to connect with her.

I’m grateful she was cold, odd, off-putting and cruel. She was pivotal in me waking up from the cult. Her emotions are shallow, with limited range. She is different from the Swami, since he is known for his dramatic, raging tantrums.

The Swami beats, rapes and strangles women and has a drug habit as wide and deep as the Columbia River. His lieutenants do drugs with him. But not Sharon.

In the ashram, I was tasked with cleaning her lavish apartment. I would have to clean her bathroom and scrub down her Jacuzzi.

I had many duties, including preparing meals for the entire ashram, cooking for 70 to 100 people, sometimes alone.

I did maintenance work also. I removed and poured concrete, mowed the lawn, chainsawed stumps and rotten trees, cleaned gutters, did roofing, flooring, masonry, dug ditches and electrical work.

I smelted copper wires. I ground metal to prepare surfaces for welding. I operated a bore with a bit as big as my hand to drill holes in concrete.

I ground the stump of a tree – at a credit of $8 hours toward my rent and tuition.While Jimi was my direct manager, Sharon decided how much my labor was “worth” and how much my room – about the size of a walk-in closet – about 14 x 7 – was supposed to be per month.

She would come down on me if I missed meditation class. Lower level members were not allowed to miss classes.

The Movement Center where I spent eight years of my life.

She decided to credit me $8 per hour for a certain number of hours I worked doing whatever they ordered me to do. I did not get the money in cash. It was applied to my rent and tuition.

She gave me papers to sign, telling me I had to sign. I had no workers compensation, health insurance, legal protection or representation.

She told me that my work was done not for payment, but part of an internship. She told me I could be replaced at any time, that I had no right of possession of my room. I could be asked to leave any time, because I was not an employee or tenant.

I learned many things I did were illegal as a volunteer/intern including OSHA violations and job safety rules, such as no helmet, no rope, no spotter.

I cut rotten poplar trees from a cherry picker, alone, 60 feet in the air, leaning over precariously, holding a chain saw dangling over the side, cutting the giant trees chunk by chunk.

I worked on old scaffolding with metal frames with old wood planks with rickety feet on the ends holding it in place.  I was four stories high, without a tie in, reglazing and repainting windows alone.

They gave me a blow torch with a propane tank for blow torching weeds.

I cleaned gutters alone, with a boat rope and harness. I scooped out rotten leaves from the utters on the four story building.

I had to carry the bag of leaves over my shoulder as I pulled myself up and down the steep part of the roof – sometimes in cold rain. I wore cheap gardening gloves carrying a wet sloppy bag as I climbed up the slippery and steep roof.

The rope was long enough that if I had slipped, I probably would not have fallen all the way to the ground.

Cool as a cucumber

Sharon Ward often told me I had no rights under the ashram system. The only time I ever saw her close to angry is when she would rant about people not being “grateful” for the opportunity to live in the community.

Swami Chetanananda with Sharon WardI was motivated to write about her due to an interview she did with OPB about being a cadaver dog search and rescue operator – and how she obtains human remains and bodily fluids.

Sharon eventually became an “official” Swami.

Attorney Sharon Ward AKA Sadhvi Parananda with her guru Swami Chetanananda. 

Even before she became a Swami, she was a spiritual teacher at the ashram and would give talks.

One of those talks was about faulty human perceptions. This “talk” she gave many times. She told me the same talk one on one more than once, like she forgot she told me or was eager to tell it again.

To summarize her talk:

A study was done on the limits of human observation, especially when asked to do complex tasks.

Subjects in a research study were asked to watch a video of basketball players running around while passing a ball (practicing their passes). The subjects are asked to count how many passes are made in a video about seven minutes long.

There are random people walking across the room. At one point in the video, a man wearing a gorilla suit walks between the players, from one side to the other.

After the video is done, the subjects of the study are asked if they saw the man in the gorilla suit.

Most in the study did not see the man in the gorilla suit.

She would then pepper in stuff about how “our practices” would increase our abilities beyond normal humans. We would spot the man in the gorilla suit.

The Swami with Sharon Word and Valli.

I have come to think Sharon probably thinks she is the man in the gorilla suit. Getting away with it. Or she is walking around in a human suit, and people are not seeing the gorilla inside.

I wonder if any law enforcement officers or rescue workers she works with know she thinks they’re stupider than her dogs, and thinks of them as uneducated “yokels” and “rednecks”.

But law enforcement and rescue operators are not alone in her low opinion. I have to grapple with the fact that she duped me for years. I was a severely stressed young adult from a very isolated and neglected childhood. I came there as a teenager.

Sharon acted as my spiritual teacher, confidant and overseer. Yet in her role as a spiritual guide, she convinced me I was a small, disappointing charity case, while she worked me like a beast doing all kinds of dangerous jobs.

She was my Dolores Umbridge.

Dolores Umbridge [played by Imelda Staunton] in ‘Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix’ is “High Inquisitor” assigned by the government’s Minister of Magic to control the school.

I worked six, sometimes 7 days a week, asking for the barest minimum, and often getting less.

Sharon does rescue work

Sharon was the first woman I knew who worked in rescue/medical/law enforcement. I was interested in EMT work. So I tried to get more information about her job.

Besides the icky cadaver stuff, she would talk about liability in rescues and first aid care, and how careful you have to be not to get sued.

At the time, I thought her obsession with legal liability was normal. She would constantly talk about how if you administer first aid, you better have your gloves on, not because of protecting yourself, but because of legal liability.

Later, when I became certified in first aid, I found that liability wasn’t emphasized that much. Sure, it was mentioned, but nobody was obsessed with the fear of being sued by the person who is not breathing whom you’re trying to revive.

Sharon would talk about if you administer a shot to someone, you never directly put the shot into their body, rather you “put their hand around the syringe and guide their hand into their own thigh.”

Why did Sharon say this over and over? What liability was she trying to avoid?

The Swami supposedly stuck B-12 shots into women without their consent, after ordering them to do drugs with him and strangling them. But is there something more?

I know Sharon covered up violent abuse and drug abuse.

I am suspicious about one girl.

The Swami’s office on the first floor was where he allegedly committed numerous assaults on women and girls. I saw a girl/young woman named Krystyn Wong go in his office daily. She was his “puja assistant.”

[Editor’s note:Ruth originally thought Krystyn was a teenager, but she may have been in her early 20s.] 

Wendy slept in the basement, while the Swami mentored her daughter.

Her mother, Wendy, lived in the basement underneath, while Krystyn slept next to the Swami’s office. She didn’t have to attend meditation like lower ranking members. She was always hurrying from one room to the next, never eating with other members in the common area. She was one of the few people allowed to keep a pet, besides Sharon.

Later, Krystyn had her college and medical school paid for by the Swami.

I wonder is she was required to sign a non-disclosure agreement.

I also think Sharon covered up for sexual abusers besides the Swami.

One is Jesse Sweeney. He sent ‘dick pics’ to a 13 year old girl and thought he was going to be arrested. Not long after, he was shipped to Nepal to try to rehab him purportedly from pedophilia and drug addiction. He was allegedly caught having sex with underage prostitutes in Nepal and sent back to the USA.

It is well known that he likes to urinate in women’s mouths. He asks them to role play as underage girls. He likes to ask women who had underage sexual trauma to reenact that trauma in sex with him for his gratification.

He demanded to orgasm on women’s faces while requiring them to keep their eyes open – which can be stingingly painful and damage the eyes. He is known to have consensual sex, then turn it violent and rape women anally without their consent.

One of his girlfriends told me that he keeps a secret hard drive known to contain photos of 12 year old girls. He is also a domestic abuser with a propensity toward rage outbursts.

He would hurt women, destroy their property, beat and strangle them, then cry and apologize and beg for forgiveness. He put one woman in a cast.

He has a rich mother, Mary Grace, who makes large contributions to the Swami. The Swami and Sharon are prepared to forgive and forget Jesse’s transgressions.

I understand the Swami says he has child porn, which he can prove is Jesse’s. He is holding this over Jesse’s head as blackmail – if Jesse ever decided to blow the Swami in on his own offenses.

Sharon almost certainly knows all about this.

Another abuser is Govind C., who assaulted me in the laundry room while folding the kitchen laundry. He came in, hugged me and kissed me on my cheek. Then he started kissing me on my lips, against my wishes. I pushed him away. I moved to the linen closet. He followed me and hugged me again, cornering me. He started kissing me – his breath reeked of alcohol – and tried to put his tongue inside my mouth. I shouted, ready to scream, which startled him enough to let go. I managed to escape and ran out the door.

I reported Govind’s attack to Sharon and asked for help. She knew how distraught I was, and that I never wanted to speak to Govind again or be in the same room.

Govind was one of the lead chanters at the ashram. I was a good singer, so I sometimes lead chants. I quit chanting after that.


Govind, the Swami and Govind’s wife, Claudia. Govind has been with the Swami since 1968. Claudia was an original hire at Intel.

I would leave the room if Govind came near me, and not speak to him or greet him during the meditation programs.

After this, Sharon ordered Govind to quit drinking, and it worked out for him. He lost about 30 pounds.

But my determination to stay away and not speak to Govind made Sharon summon me to her office.

She said, “We need you to remain publicly friends with Govind for the sake of our public programs.”

I refused. Sharon was not pleased.

I asked Sharon if she would kick me out because of my refusal. She said, “We shall see.”

I was kicked out not long after. Sharon said I was “spiritual poison.”

But what really sealed my expulsion was that Sharon asked me, while I worked six to 7 days a week for the ashram to apply for SSI.

Sharon told me that my “internship” work was unacceptable as “tuition” and I was there only by their good graces. I didn’t pay them rent in cash. No matter how many hours I worked – and it was usually over 50 hours per week – I still owed them more tuition.

Sharon told me that even though my work was insufficient to pay for my room and tuition, they are generous human beings, and their mission was to help me.

So she told me to get SSI by claiming I was mentally disabled. They would keep my check as partial payment toward my tuition and rent for my room.

I remember Sharon trying to convince me I was mentally ill. Though she is not a doctor or therapist, her training with the Swami as a spiritual teacher gave her greater insight into the human mind than a mere paid professional.

Sadhvi and the Swami at Gold Beach.

She used my private childhood trauma – which I had told her about – to convince me that I needed to accept I was mentally disabled.

I knew I was not physically disabled. I worked every day in the kitchen to prepare food.  I knew the construction and maintenance work I did was competent. I was capable of being a healthy member of society.

I did not need to be on SSI.

However, I made the application – applying based on mental disability – with Sharon guiding me to make signed statements under penalty of perjury.

SSI assigned a case worker and lawyer. I was afraid to tell them what kind of life I lived at the ashram. Eventually, I told my lawyer I was not disabled. I felt that committing SSI fraud would ruin my life.  The lawyer suggested I was being used, and told me it could backfire if I “committed federal fraud.”

I declined to go to the court hearing for my SSI.

But I nearly did what Sharon demanded. I was desperate to please her and thought so low of myself.

The narrative around anyone like me put to work there was how little money the ashram has, and “how lucky you are to be here to have this opportunity to grow.”

Swami and Sharon Ward

I’m glad I didn’t do SSI fraud. They could have convinced the world I wasn’t fit to represent myself, and stole my SSI check forever. They would have collateral on me for the rest of my life, and used that to control me.

Around the time I refused to lie to SSI, the ashram got a new crop of young people. Dan and Jessica were coming in. So was Natacha and her sister, Marianna.

Young people were sucked in. While they were being love bombed, I was discarded.

Not long after, they were discarded.

The Govind incident, plus my refusal to lie to the government to get SSI, led to me being expelled from the ashram.

I am lucky to have left, and I am now gainfully employed in a management position with an international company – and making a lot more than $8 per hour.

In my next article, I will tell more about the secret life at the ashram that I observed during my eight years living there.

 

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  • I wouldn’t even want this sick f to be my bus driver.
    Eyes. Cho mo eyes.
    Lizard skinned sociopath.
    Put him back in the dumpster with his own kind, rats, cockroaches and maggots.

  • Ruth-

    What you went through is a nightmare. You are an incredible strong individual.

    Thank you for sharing your story.

  • One more thing…

    The Department of Labor has standards for determining if an intern is really a paid employee.

    Sharon Ward fails these standards, even for a nonprofit organization.

    While it’s true that nonprofit/religious organizations are given more leeway to call somebody an unpaid intern (volunteer) — and while they’re allowed to pay a NOMINAL FEE and cover SOME expenses — the fees paid to your unpaid intern (volunteer) should not amount to more than 20 percent of what it would cost to hire an employee to do the same job. Otherwise, they’ll likely be classified as an employee.

    For example… Having Sharon Ward ‘credit’ Ruth’s hours worked against her full room & board is definitely paying her more than a nominal (20 percent) fee.

    She also wasn’t a ‘paid intern’ —– since there are strict rules governing that classification too.

    The fact that Ruth’s job duties (for 8 long years) had nothing to do with ‘religious education’ demonstrates that she was hired to displace a paid groundskeeper & food prep assistant, showing that she’s really an employee working for the benefit of Sharon Ward.

    Based on what Ruth described, she was basically a hard-working cook and groundskeeper working in exchange for full room & board for 8 long years, with very specific jobs being credited against her room & board ——- while the Swami avoided having to pay federal employer-based taxes, state-based payroll taxes and Workers’ Comp insurance (along with failing to abide by other labor laws too).

    The fact that Ruth took a few ‘classes’ while working there doesn’t change the facts.

    Sharon Ward is a cheater. She’s human garbage. 🙂

  • Ruth Graham has very little credibility. Anyone who was present, and knows her, know this to be true. However, her story as incredible as it may be, does highlight the fact that this guru, and his associates have no idea how to interact effectively with young adults. Zero. They have not a clue.

    It is all this “old school”, stuck, stale, way of looking down upon young adults, and (importantly), keeping them down. The lack of true, progressive mentoring in this community was one of a lengthy series of aspects that undid the entire event. Tom Fabrizio, who is head of the secret police of this place, was a good example of an outdated, out of touch person, whose militaristic, heavy handed approach simply did not work.

    He is an asshole for sure. But–historically, Gurus like having a group of “flaming assholes” as close associates. Muktananda had that, so did Rajneesh. It actually serves a very useful purpose–keeping people off balance, and, at bay. Ruth Graham was mis-treated without a doubt, but of course her story here is grossly exaggerated.

    • Oh? You were present and you know me? Who are you? Please name yourself for us and tell us more about it, how did you know me? Be brave. Its important I think for everything to be above board. If I have to step back for a much more credible person to come forward, maybe its you? I am willing to do that. I’m trying to do the right thing here. Are you?

    • Hey fig this is Dan Glavin. I was present and I lived with Ruth for over a year and I know her now today. I’d like to see your real name so we know if you were present and if you’re credible. Lots of people outside the ashram who experienced trauma all talk to each other. And I don’t know any of them who call Ruth a liar or a person who has embellished their experience.

    • Hey Fig- Ruth is dead on accurate. Are you saying the SSI story isn’t true? The labor isn’t true? The lack of pay isn’t true?

      What part of her story is false? At least he specific if you are going to try to discredit someone.

      Ruth’s telling the truth. Please go ahead and prove me wrong.

    • Firstly, tell me a person that wants to be judged in perpetuity for the things they did as a 19 year old or even a 25 year old. Show me anyone that experienced abuse or hardship in their lives that didn’t exhibit outward signs of trauma that others misunderstood and judged them for. Give me a break. I agree with Dan. If you want to accuse her of something, then let her face her accusers. You want to say she’s non credible, then let us see if you can credibly judge her.

      I was there. What I saw was a tiny young woman who looked like she was about 16, who was overworked with all the shittiest jobs no one else wanted to do. And the coldest most heartless people in the ashram got to use her and order her about like their personal slave.

      Certainly no one is perfect and I don’t know anything about her personal life. But I saw what I saw and she was a mouse in a den of rattle snakes.

      • “Show me anyone that experienced abuse or hardship in their lives that didn’t exhibit outward signs of trauma that others misunderstood and judged them for.”

        Couldn’t this compassion also extend to Swami Chet? I hear he had a rough upbringing.

        • No. Because he has HARMED 100’s of people. When he is behind bars and is being held accountable for his crimes against innocent people, but I doubt it even then. He is darkness.

      • To Shining light,
        Did you ever stand up for the human being that was so abused by everyone?
        Just wondering what actually happened when you witnessed this abuse.
        Please elaborate.

        • By “the human being” I’m assuming you mean Ruth. Strange disassociation there. I can’t tell if this is couching some hostility towards Ruth and her story, or if this is just a generic attack from those still defending Shoemaker, or if you feel guilt about something. But I’ll play.

          Firstly, if you were there at all, you are clearly older. Someone young would already know the answer to this question. And the reason I bring up age is twofold. Most of us young people were fighting for every breath in that place. It was incredibly difficult to get your bearings and know who you could trust. You took constant shots from all sides for all reasons, mostly because you hadn’t been around for the last 30 years working. You were resented, patronized and you were looked down upon. Not by everyone. But by those with power. I was also in my twenties at that time.

          Secondly, who should I have told and who would’ve listened? Would you suggest I told Sharon? Surely as she was in charge of Ruth duties and finances, she would take this as a personal attack. What would she have done to me? Or perhaps one of her allies? Theresa? I just have to laugh at the absurdity of your question. Do you know Theresa? Maybe I should have told Jim I disapproved of Ruth on a cherry picker, even though I only learnt about that now. What do you think would have happened to me had I critiqued his management? Should I have called a meeting of ashram management?

          A moment of thought about this question shows what a joke it actually is. So you’re either Sharon or Shoemaker or Jim (scratch that, Jim’s not smart enough) or one of Shoemaker’s defenders, trying to be clever and trying to camouflage an attack, or you’re a troll with nothing better to do. You are being stupid and you know it. I’m just trying to figure out why. By the way, so we’re crystal clear. I also was being abused at this time. And if you had a clue about anything you wouldn’t dare say that to me and not feel disgusted with yourself. Unless of course, you’re the one who did it to me.

    • FIG
      oh really? You can use as many cute names as you want, your repetitive, overly-clever commentary is easily recognizable. You are a coward. Its amazing how you are the authority on everything. Your deep anger and bitterness are apparent. Why don’t you tell YOUR story first person?

      Ruth Graham told her truths here.

      • Thank you for the compliment. I would rather be overly clever, than a know nothing like you. Anger and bitterness, huh? I don’t view it that way at all. I view it as one asshole: Swami, is getting his just due here. He mistreated and abused many, lied, did drugs, took credit for others work, and accomplishments, and accepted no blame for anything, ever. My first person story is very simple: I am a very devoted practitioner, and will always be grateful to Swami for many reasons. I just dont like the way he treated others, that’s all. And-by golly, I actually care about others. What a concept, huh? Fig will never be silenced.

        • to FIG
          Well, well and there you have it, by golly. “I…will always be grateful to Swami for many reasons.”
          I am grateful for him showing me the breathing exercise. It works for me.

          All the people coming forward here are doing it to put an end to the harm he is causing and inflicting on others.

  • I would like to make a special note here that Sharon Ward was never initiated as a Swami.
    She was offered the opportunity to take sannyas along with Howard Boster and Per Johansson; however Sharon declared that she “didn’t need a title to know who she was in this world.”
    Well, until 2013. But let me back up. 2007 Shoemaker took a dark and twisted path. Leaving his student body parked studying TRIKA Yoga he himself embarked down the Kaula Yoga path. A tradition Rudi warned against and forbid. At this time Shoemaker abandoned Nityananda’s Lineage. He abandoned Rudi’s teachings and his students.

    And Sharon Ward walked straight down that dark path with Shoemaker holding his hand the entire way. A tradition with thousands of years history in child sacrifice, cannabalism, hanging out in cremation grounds sitting on top of dead bodies because Aghori Initiates believe it will give them supernatural powers.

    I say Shoemaker is no longer a Guru in the lineage of Nityananda. That is my opinion.

    And Sharon Ward was initiated in 2013 by an Indian man banded Ram Dayal Shastri. He is not of Nityananda’s lineage. He is of the Kaula tradition; something the public was not made fully aware of.

    Sadhvi. Sadhu. Ever look up what that title translates to? We have more access to esoteric ritual practices thanks to the internet.

    People employ these ritual practices to gain power. They will tell you all day it is to gain mastery over one’s Self and while you attempt to follow their teachings they will rob you blind.

    For some it’s money, others pleasure, others labor.

    • This actually is very significant. I’d say once RDS started working with SC in India, which practically started early 2009, that’s when things started really breaking down in the ashram. Whether people believe it or not, Rudi’s work protected him and though he’d been fucking people over for a long time, he still had a lot of power. Once he abandoned it and submitted to another practice and lineage, it was only a downhill slide into hell. One worse event after another. Without telling his students, he took them down a dark path no one signed up for in his desperate attempts to gain power over the physical realm and prove himself. It clearly lead straight to hell. Hope you enjoy it, mate. Couldn’t have happened to a nice guy.

  • Swami posted awhile back that this next phase of his life represented complete uncertainty, and he didn’t know what it was going to look like, and was totally OK with that. How many millions of dollars did this organization pocket when they sold their Ashram? And, he had the largest house in Gold Beach(10,000 sq feet), complete with a maintenance man, a chef, an attorney, and various other attendants. Most people would happily sign up for this level of so called uncertainty. What a full of shit guy he is. Crying “poor mouth” all those years, and all the while workin on a great big real estate deal. What a snake.

    • And keeping up the smiling facade until the last knell so everyone would still keep paying the bills and not notice they were heading off a cliff.

    • I heard the house was selling for 16 million but I think it actually sold for 8 million. I believe the the mortgage was paid by a wealthy student about 20-some years ago; I bet that poor guy didn’t get a red cent! Rumor was he dropped a million to pay off the mortgage back then. So many people who’ve been hurt in many ways by shoemaker! Many people were robbed blind by this conman

  • One of the phoniest, dishonest and foolish things we do as a species is canonize the dead. As a matter a fact, that’s the only reason we all find ourselves on this same comment string.

    When it comes to mass murderers, child abusers, and perpetrators of the worst kinds of crimes against humanity I don’t play that. You do nothing dead, it’s what you did while you lived that counts. So many of the people we have been brainwashed through the ages to think of saints and hero’s only later come out to be massive piles of shit. Another way of being manipulated to keep ones mouth shut. People in dark power also bank on that foolishness.

    Just die and all the horrible things you did did in earth is erased. Clean slate. Doesn’t work like that.

  • His eyes speak volumes. Why is it that all these evil bastards all have the same expression and these asymmetrical eyes? His face looks like a melting wax figure. He should be in jail. This should be covered by every media outlet
    Thank goodness Frank is fearlessly investigating this
    A true maverick

    • I have a question for all these folks in the comments who seem to know a lot about the ashram. Why aren’t yall using your real names?

      • Stop bullying victims and maybe more people would speak out. People can remain anonymous; the only person who needs their name is their lawyer.

        • Exactly. Goody for you for giving your name Dan, but you have no right to tell other people what to do. It does come across as bullying.

          • How is me asking a question equivalent to telling someone what to do? I’m not bullying anyone. I don’t even know how this comment ended up as a reply to this poster. It was supposed to be its own comment,

      • it’s about my REAL real name, Dan…
        I was easily accessible and received WAAAAAY too many DMs, my phone was blown up, and quite frankly some crazies found me. The ashram seems to be OVERLOADED with them. I don’t like hearing about DEATH THREATS or bullshit about karma.

        I hope you and others are truly working together with us to get Shoemaker prosecuted. The bullshit gossip and animosity between members and ex-members is not contributing to our goal here. We need to support the people with the courage to come out of the shadows.

        Not pointing a finger at YOU, by any means, Dan, just saying it for all who read the Frank Report.

        Thank you for coming forward and for your contribution to what we hope to accomplish here.

  • This was unbearable to read. I literally have a sore belly. How can this be?
    What can people do to help the victims press charges?
    Truly heartbreaking.

  • I hope that you post sooner than later
    Sending so much support and appreciation
    You are courageous

    Thank you Frank Parlato for giving her the pathway to expose

    Bravo 🎉

  • That video with the man in the gorilla suit is commonly used in Psychology 101 textbooks , as well as many criminal justice classes to point out how bad people are at observation, and to point out that because of our poor observational skills, we are not great as witnesses. It is another reason why our courts need material evidence, not merely, “eyewitness accounts.’

  • Ruth, you are a very upstanding citizen. Thank you for being the voice of integrity, honesty, and great values and morals.

  • HI, I thought that Ruth and Jesse were together even after he got back from Nepal. I remember those two being thick as thieves right up till Ruth moved out. Please clarify. Thank you.

    • Yeah no. This is 100% false. We also never lived together. Do you remember that? Who are you btw? When he went to Nepal I moved fully to another floor, away from him. I fully quit even being his FRIEND by the time he came back from Nepal because he promised to email me to update me on how he’s doing (affirming to me hes on the straight and narrow) and he couldn’t even do that. There was even a public incident of me calling him out, yelling at him for that, if I recall, when he came back.

      Jesse is a person who strikes me as someone who has never once in his life faced real consequences for anything and that sucks for him obviously, but I have no more sympathy after I heard what he did to his most recent ex. NONE. In fact that awoke a lot for me, still to this day, that makes me want to physically puke.

      My guess is you’re a deadender swami/cult defender trying to discredit me with obvious lies. What do you gain in this? What is your purpose here? Will you put your name out? Maybe there will be a group of you all testifying together against me someday. Did that work for NXIVM, btw?

  • Wasn’t Ruth Graham Jesse Sweeney’s girlfriend? And didn’t she stay with him even after he left to go to Nepal? Would that have been AFTER this alleged child pornography incident happened?

  • Excellent article by Ruth.

    She writes well.

    If Sharon Ward used such a coercive & fake internship to violate basic labor laws and tenant/landlord laws, as well as illegally circumventing IRS laws on paying federal ’employment taxes’ for employees (by calling it a fake internship) — as Ruth’s story is suggesting — then it’s logical to assume that Sharon Ward used this scheme for other tenants too.

    That’s a RICO violation if it happened just twice in any 10 year period.

    The duties that Ruth described are the duties of a heavily controlled ’employee’ who’s working for very specific pay being credited against her rent, food, and tuition (nobody can argue that those are the duties of an intern or even a contractor, as there’s way too much ‘control’ being exercised by Sharon Ward).

    She told Ruth everything to do each day, and exactly how/when to do it. That’s a textbook ’employee’ according to IRS regulations.

    Based on Ruth’s comments, it seems clear that this was purposely designed to be a scheme that circumvents various laws —- and some of them are federal laws.

    If Frank can show just 2 instances of Sharon Ward doing this on behalf of the Swami’s organization (within any 10 year period) —– then he should be able to convince the DOJ to investigate the Swami and/or Sharon Ward for possible RICO violations.

    RICO is not time-barred by a typical statute of limitations, like other laws are.

    That’s how the DOJ cited illegal acts that happened way back in 2005 — to prosecute NXIVM recently.

    As long as you can prove that an organization conducted 2 separate illegal acts within any 10 year period — which violate certain federal laws — then the organization is considered a racketeering enterprise.

    Based on what Ruth is saying, his organization received huge benefits by using schemes to evade labor laws & employment tax laws (and possibly other laws) —– similar to how NXIVM evaded employment laws by cooking up various ‘schemes’.

    The landlord/tenant laws which were allegedly violated probably aren’t federal laws (so they probably wouldn’t apply to RICO) —- but the coercive ‘fake’ internship and the obvious avoidance of IRS employment taxes probably are covered by RICO.

    There also might be other federal laws that were violated, based on the bogus documents which Ruth was asked to sign.

    It doesn’t matter if Ruth ‘agreed’ that she was an intern ——- because that carries no legal weight IF the Swami was using such documents to circumvent various laws.

    In fact, such bogus documents would be part of the ‘fraud’ (if Ruth’s story is true).

    For example, if Sharon ever mailed those coercive/bogus documents to anybody using the Post Office, each mailing would represent a separate violation of federal ‘mail fraud’ laws.

    Or… If Sharon ever emailed or faxed such coercive/bogus documents to anybody, each email/fax would represent a separate violation of federal ‘wire fraud’ laws.

    Frank, at least try to get a RICO investigation started. The Swami deserves to feel the heat. 🙂

    I wonder what Jess Becker knows about this stuff? I’m sure that she can backup much of what Ruth is saying.

    If the DOJ goes in there with a microscope —- they’ll probably uncover all kinds of illegal shit, based on what Ruth is saying.

    • Small Correction: Tax fraud is not listed as a specific RICO crime — but mail fraud & wire fraud are included.

      However, even though tax fraud isn’t a specific RICO crime —- it’s still quite possible that Sharon Ward could be investigated for tax fraud itself, apart from RICO, since she’s probably hired similar people in Gold Beach.

      i.e., She’s probably hired other ‘unpaid interns’ in Gold Beach and had them sign bogus paperwork to claim they are just interns ——- when she’s really hiring employees to do the shit-work around the compound, lol.

      She’s using the typical playbook of people trying to avoid IRS employer-based taxes —- so I’d be surprised if she suddenly stopped more than 6 years ago. Zebras can’t change their stripes.

      She’d never survive an IRS audit using such obvious schemes — because the job duties she’s assigning to people like Ruth are WAY beyond anything an intern would be doing for nearly a decade, many hours per day, of hard work, lol.

      The IRS should be contacted here and tipped off.

  • She’s a nasty piece of work, that one. I avoided her like the plague. She was civil if you paid your full way, but only ever “nice” if you made large donations on top of that.

    Then she’d kiss your ass and laugh and guffaw with you loudly as though she was fun and grand and you were special. Another Jekyll and Hyde two-faced fake as fuck cunt of a person. If you were in trouble or needed help, she looked at you like you were a filthy charity case that she’d like to spit on. Especially if you were close to her Almighty. She didn’t like that al all because then she’d have to back off from you. And she likes control.

    Shoemaker used to tell me that she didn’t love him but she was loyal, like a dog. And that she only had the capacity to love her dogs. What vibration is that, I wonder? Maybe that’s why she didn’t get along with anyone. Wrong species. Bob couldn’t take her either, having constant affairs, including with Monica. Must of been one of the times Swami was trying to get rid of her.

    This entire place was spiritual poison. It poisoned all of us to greater or lesser degrees depending on how deeply we bought into it and how much of it we let it in. None of these people have an ounce of charity or compassion in them. They resented you for even walking among them, though tolerated you if you paid for their lifestyle. Such high opinions they all have of themselves. What a fucking charade. In the end, they took it all and ran. How they can show their faces to anyone is the greatest mystery of all to me.

    • Thanks for that detail anon about how she treated you better if you had money. I think I knew that but forgot. I never got that special treatment, only saw it from afar.

      • You sure didn’t Ruth. You didn’t deserve what they did to you, I hope you truly know that. It was only your intense vulnerability and that you had no one there looking out for your best interests that the worst of them got their hooks into you. You all make fucking sick.

        Ruth, you’re inspiringly brave 💜

    • Spiritual poison ? Well said. So sorry you all went through this colossal nightmare.

      I hope that you continue to tell this story.

    • “And that she only had the capacity to love her dogs. What vibration is that, I wonder”

      Usually people who like animals better than humans demand unconditional love regardless of their own shitty behavior. It’s a lot harder to get that from humans than from dependent animals.

  • Thank you for sharing your story Ruth. I look forward to hearing more. It sounds like you were certainly taken advantage of and they should be ashamed of how they treated you. Have you considered taking legal action? How about your family, the ones who are also involved? Where do they stand? Are they supportive or do they stand by Swami and Sharon?

  • When you were asked to work, why didn’t you just move out? I’m not defending them (I don’t know them). I’m also curious if you’ve gone to the authorities or if you’re only interested in the public attention this space allows?

    As someone involved with one of the other cults Franks exposing, I’m wondering what you expect to happen?

    • I had no where else to go. If you’re involved in other cults I would assume you know how coercive control works as well. A lot of this I was truly ignorant of until I left. I was made to think that I really had no legal rights. For about two years leading up to me leaving I was mentally exiting that place, struggling with the betrayal and disbelief. When you are gaslighted hard its really hard to see through the fog. Fear Obligation and Guilt. FOG.

      A lot of things I was also completely in the dark about, including the rapes perpetrated by Swami, and the rampant drug abuse. I didn’t learn about that until I left.

      Have you heard of the podcast A little bit culty? by NXIVM suvivors Sarah and Nippy? It explains a lot of how cult control works. Very similar to domestic violence actually.

    • When you are being raped why didn’t you just fight back? When you were being mugged and assaulted why didn’t you just run away? When you had no support structure and a person in a position of power over your life threatened you why didn’t you just become a millionaire and sue them? This is a ridiculous question from a fellow “cult survivor “.

      Hey someone run over to Ukraine and tell them the new secret weapon is to tell the Russians to “stop”. THE REASON people come here to share their story ten years after it happens is because they never had enough momentum or evidence to just go to “the authorities”, never mind the emotional and physical trauma they were dealing with at the same time. Hey maybe that’s why only 30% of the rape cases in the united states get reported. Wait what?

      Only 50% of those rape cases result in an arrest? And what what what?!? Only 50% of those arrests lead to a conviction? How many times is the abuser “the authorities”? Hey fellow cult survivor I’ll dumb it down in even more for you. Why the shit didn’t YOU just not join the cult in the first place? I realize I’m talking about assualt and you’re taking about forced labor. But when we live in a society where a victim has to have a witness to be believed and where the vast majority of victims don’t have the necessary economic tools and family support structures that are conducive for an emotionally battering and rigorous trial experience people aren’t going to come forward.

      • This comment made me tear up. Thank you so much Dan. I’m so glad you and Jess got out. You are good people and I’m so grateful for your bravery!

      • Thank you , Dan, The first thing the police said to me after i told them my story…”you were there HOW long after he raped you? Why did you stay?”

  • Ruth Graham is transphobic, specifically towards trans women. She also has a huge issue with people choosing a pronoun, choosing a sex. She is on many online sites talking her bigoted rhetoric. She denies being phobic, yet the truth is she says she is scared to use a bathroom with trans women because of some of our parts. THis tells me that she not only is transphobic, but that she believes that every man will rape. She also is in a relationship with a married man. She called herself polyamorous, but I would love to know if she sat down with her bf’s wife to confirm that she is okay with ruth having a relationship with her husband. Also, from what I heard, Ruth Graham ordered a semi-automatic gun ONLINE from another country to avoid certain “red tape’ here in the USA. She took that semi automatic gun to the beach town where the Swami and his community live also- from what I heard. She went up onto her ex Jesse Sweeney’s( yes, Jesse is her ex boyfriend) private property in the wee hours of the morning, with her semi- automatic. Why did she bring that weapon to that town? Why won’t she revel these not so fantastic truths about herself to people here? I would really like to see her online posts about trans people here, just to show that she is actually the pillar of truth that she infers she is

  • Ruth Graham is transphobic, specifically towards trans women. She also has a huge issue with people choosing a pronoun, choosing a sex. She is on many online sites talking her bigoted rhetoric. She denies being phobic, yet the truth is she says she is scared to use a bathroom with trans women because of some of our parts. THis tells me that she not only is transphobic, but that she believes that every man will rape. She also is in a relationship with a married man. She called herself polyamorous, but I would love to know if she sat down with her bf’s wife to confirm that she is okay with ruth having a relationship with her husband. Also, from what I heard, Ruth Graham ordered a semi-automatic gun ONLINE from another country to avoid certain “red tape’ here in the USA. She took that semi automatic gun to the beach town where the Swami and his community live also- from what I heard. She went up onto her ex Jesse Sweeney’s( yes, Jesse is her ex boyfriend) private property in the wee hours of the morning, with her semi- automatic. Why did she bring that weapon to that town? Why won’t she revel these not so fantastic truths about herself to people here? I would really like to see her online posts about trans people here, just to show that she is actually the pillar of truth that she infers she is.

  • Swami wanted Sharon to marry his brother Bob, so they were married in Boston, back in the eighties. It was odd that Bob married her because it didn’t seem like he was in love. It seemed to be a marriage of convenience, beneficial to the Swami of course and to Sharon. Of course this didn’t stop Bob from having affairs, which he had throughout his marriage. I can’t say I blame him. Eventually Bob divorced her in the early 2000’s, and later remarried a much younger woman whom, a newer student of Swami’s that he fell madly in love with, and they both left the Ashram together. I think Bob resented Swami and really longed to get away. He finally moved as far away as he could, to India with his new wife.

    • Sharon and Bob got back together at a certain point, I think in 2010s, I was told they were legally remarried. They then broke up again. I never really saw any love or affection between them.

    • He used his own brother to secure his personal rottweiler, his beck-and-call attorney, a servile die-hard. Bob was a useful idiot. Sharon got her wish, to be his right hand, as close as he would let her. Bob was her consolation prize and a means to an end. She was far too masculine to be Swami’s type and doesn’t rate on Swami’s fuckable quotient. Which was part of why she hated his new young playthings. Competition, though she’d never admit it to herself. They got in closer to him than she ever could, and she hates them for it.

      But to him she’s highly useful. Someone needs to do his paperwork and financials, issue cease and desist notices, and negotiate his settlements. Best of all she shuts her mouth and keeps her emotions in check (the icy bitch has none). His most highest esteemed quality in his inner circle.

  • Frank, I submitted a comment (twice) —— but I think it’s getting trapped in your spam filter (doesn’t show up as ‘waiting for moderation’ like my other comments do.

  • Excellent article by Ruth.

    She writes well.

    If Sharon Ward used such a coercive & fake internship to violate basic labor laws and tenant/landlord laws, as well as illegally circumventing IRS laws on paying federal ’employment taxes’ for employees (by calling it a fake internship) — as Ruth’s story is suggesting — then it’s logical to assume that Sharon Ward used this scheme for other tenants too.

    That’s a RICO violation if it happened just twice in any 10 year period.

    The duties that Ruth described are the duties of a heavily controlled ’employee’ who’s working for very specific pay being credited against her rent, food, and tuition (nobody can argue that those are the duties of an intern or even a contractor, as there’s way too much ‘control’ being exercised by Sharon Ward).

    She told Ruth everything to do each day, and exactly how/when to do it. That’s a textbook ’employee’ according to IRS regulations.

    Based on Ruth’s comments, it seems clear that this was purposely designed to be a coercive scheme that circumvents various laws —- and some of them are federal laws.

    In other words, if Ruth’s story is accurate, this wasn’t just a ‘misunderstanding’ (civil infraction) of various labor/employment laws by Sharon Ward or the Swami. It was intentional.

    If Frank can show just 2 instances of Sharon Ward doing this on behalf of the Swami’s organization (within any 10 year period) —– then he should be able to convince the DOJ to investigate the Swami and/or Sharon Ward for RICO violations.

    RICO is not time-barred by a typical statute of limitations, like other laws are.

    That’s how the DOJ cited illegal acts that happened way back in 2005 — to prosecute NXIVM recently.

    As long as you can prove that an organization conducted 2 separate illegal acts within any 10 year period — which violate certain federal laws — then the organization is considered a racketeering enterprise.

    Based on what Ruth is saying, his organization received huge benefits by using schemes to evade labor laws & employment tax laws (and possibly other laws) —– similar to how NXIVM evaded employment laws by cooking up various ‘schemes’.

    The landlord/tenant laws which were allegedly violated probably aren’t federal laws (so they probably wouldn’t apply to RICO) —- but the coercive ‘fake’ internship and the obvious avoidance of IRS employment taxes probably are covered by RICO.

    There also might be other federal laws that were violated, based on the bogus documents which Ruth was asked to sign.

    Legally speaking, it doesn’t matter what documents Ruth (or anybody else) signed.

    It doesn’t matter if Ruth ‘agreed’ that she was an unpaid intern ——- because that carries no legal weight IF the Swami was using such documents to circumvent various laws.

    In fact, such bogus documents would be part of the ‘fraud’ (if Ruth’s story is true).

    For example, if Sharon ever mailed those coercive/bogus documents to anybody using the Post Office, each mailing would represent a separate violation of federal ‘mail fraud’ laws.

    Or… If Sharon ever emailed or faxed such coercive/bogus documents to anybody, each email/fax would represent a separate violation of federal ‘wire fraud’ laws.

    Frank, at least try to get a RICO investigation started. They deserve it.

    What does Jess Becker have to say about these schemes? I’m sure that she can backup much of what Ruth is saying, with regard to the schemes which Ruth is describing.

    Keep up the heat, Frank.

    If the DOJ goes in there with a microscope —- they’ll probably uncover all kinds of absurd and illegal shit — based on what Ruth is saying.

  • Frank- will you posting my comments about Ruth Graham? It’s fair to tell people who she is fully. Playing favorites just shows who you are!

    • Yes I plan to publish your comments. But you made some mistakes in it. So I plan to respond to your comments. You have raised some interesting points.

      • Are you censoring my comment, or merely correcting grammar and clerical errors? I would hate to see the puller of the constitution censoring!

          • Lila is my name. Thank you Frank. I would like it to be posted here. Ruth truly offended those of us in the trans community many many times, so before she points fingers and attempts to speak about other people’s character, I feel that people need to know who she is.

  • Why was a European yoga teacher (Isa Raim) given a personal mantra by Swami? It says so on Isa’s website. This is a clear example of the kind of favoritism, and bullshit politics that Swami Chetanananda engaged in regularly. He gave him the personal mantra in order to make him feel special. But–what he was really after was Isa’s European yoga student connections. As Isa has a significant following in Europe. Unconditional love, shrouded by ulterior motives. Swami engaged in lots of examples of this kind of complete bullshit. Got that Sadhvi? Are ya there? But–the rest of us were left to have to “eat” the fact that Isa is some form of special student, who required special attention from Swami. Nah. Nobody is special. Quit saying that shit. SADHVI: you cult facilitator, you. You are very much a part of this charade in every way.

    • The bigger question is, why is Isa Raim still claiming a connection to this sadist monster and why did he publicly speak out against Natasha when he didn’t have a fucking clue what happened to her behind closed doors? Do his students know? Would he like to give an explanation or is he content with using his connection to this filthy lineage of pedos, women-beaters, drug-addicts and rapists to gain cred and clout and hope his students don’t look too closely?

      • This is what I want to know more about!!!
        I want to know about the people who are out there teaching this crap and perpetuating a cycle of abuse.

        Isa Reim?
        Who the heck is Imara Larkin?

        They say they are students of Chetananada but what the heck are they out there teaching?

        Who else is out there trying to teach what they call tantric bdsm?

        Because that shit needs to stop. It’s a completely vile perversion.

        Shoemaker’s reign of terror needs to cease and desist

  • This Govind guy… is that his real name? I wonder if I know him. I was in the Bloomington ashram in the early 70s. I may know something about him.

      • Govind was given that name by his actual Guru. He never claimed that Swami Chetanananda was his Guru, but since his Guru took Mahasamahdi, he was welcomed to come with Swami Chetanananda. This is not uncommon amongst the Yogic community, especially in India where people dedicate their lives to their practice and their Guru by goign to live in their Guru’s presence for the rest of any of their lives.

        • Is that you Govind? Sounds like some sanctimonious Siddha yoga bullshit if ever I heard it. Way to cut and dodge out of the mountain of shit heading towards Shoemaker. Uh, uh actually, he’s not reeeeally my Guru, he’s just who I use to hide behind so I don’t have to live in the real world.

    • He’s a Muktananda relic, been around since the 70s. I’m pretty sure his name was given to him by Muktananda and he changed it by deed poll. Only the old timers will know his real name, which I know he does not like to be called by. Last name is Cornelison. age would be early 70s.

  • Ruth– Thank you for bravely exposing all you experienced. Sharon Ward is clearly a master manipulator. They are predators, with a systematic approach they’ve perfected over decades.

    Has this been reported to ‘authorities’ and if so, what authorities need to be contacted? Gold Beach Police? Portland? The FBI?

  • Isn’t Ruth Graham with a married man, and she tells people that she and her mate are polyamory’s , but did not sit down with her married bf’s wife to confirm that she was okay with this arrangement? Doesn’t she point fingers at many others, yet she is doing so much damage in her own right to many others. Having that online presence speaking out against trans people Trans- women specifically- we aren’t “real” women and she is afraid to use a bathroom with us. That alone says that she believes any person who is, or was, a man, would rape if given a chance. Pretty fearful of something that isn’t true at all. Rapists rape. Period.
    I encourage Ruth to answer this and the other comment directly, and with her online commentary on Tran women. Make sure your hero is the person you truly want as a hero.

    • What does being trans or Ruth’s opinion on Trans people have anything to do with her experience at the ashram? And people who are born as men and transition to women aren’t women. They’re men. Just because mainstream media and Hollywood like to normalize being Trans doesn’t mean the vast majority of common folk agree. Are you seriously saying that women should be perfectly fine with a 6’5″ 250lbs man dressed as a women using the bathroom with them? Get a grip. You’re just making Ruth sound reasonable. -Dan

    • Just wow, now after all the abuse we’ve endured by a man and his brain-dead posse we have to contend with the trans-brigade twisting everything to their agenda. Seriously, on your bike. I don’t want a man in my bathroom either.

    • As a rape survivor (and we are an army) I will tell you that I want bathrooms and changing areas where I am undressed penis free. I’m not sure why that isn’t receiving any type of consideration, AT ALL.

      There is plenty of things going on in your community that can use your policing and that would be much appreciated. There are reasons woman don’t feel safe.

      Trans folks have an anything you say goes policy and it’s letting a ton of bad elements in who are using your movement as an opportunity to prey on and abuse vulnerable women and children. That is just reality. If you are jumping in here to say she’s bad and everything she says is wrong because she doesn’t want to look at dick in what has always been our safe space you are truly out of line. She’s a rape survivor. A lot of us are triggered by that and yet none of you consider our feelings, we are just supposed to cater to all of yours, You just assert it’s your right as a woman we need to be ok with your dicks flopping around. Yes, you should have your own restrooms if you still maintain a penis.

      There. I said it.

      Then you can take care of your personal bathroom business in a place that supports your unique needs. Would it make it easier if we just labeled bathrooms with a penis or vagina and people can go into the one their parts match? Most of us don’t actually have issues with trans women who have put actual and obvious effort into transitioning. I’m fairly certain this has NOTHING to do with the Ashram as the only communal bathroom was in the yoga area and there were no showers in there. You have a serious creeper issue in your community.

      Very grateful for Blaire White whom I respect greatly for bringing some sanity into these conversations. The trans woman on the left of this debate is welcome in the bathroom with me. The mentally ill sexual deviant on the right is not. This is NOT an isolated example of the people trying to pass themselves off as women to prey on both women and children. If you don’t like that reality, good. Please do something about it. Yes, it’s definitely your job to police your community.

      It’s become a serious issue and it’s NOT helping your communities image a bit. I can only imagine you wrote this on here because you literally believe her statements regarding trans people somehow compares to the horrific abuse she details here. That worries me about how you plan to survive the harsh reality of this world.

      What are you going to do when you all stop being the useful new political bright and shiny and you have to come to grips that hurt feelings are indeed an inescapable fact of life and will have to learn some coping skills. For your sake, let it be now.

      https://youtu.be/bnhnShhxfhQ

      • What about trans women who are rape survivors who don’t want to go into a bathroom with heterosexual penises?

        What do you think is more likely to happen… Trans woman is going to get beat up/raped going into the cis men’s bathroom or a cis woman is going to get raped by a trans woman going into the women’s bathroom. ? I kind of think the trans woman is going to have a much harder time going into the cis men’s bathroom.

        • So you admit men with penises are a disproportionate danger, yet given the word of a man about his self identification of having a true inside “authentic” gender soul identity of a woman, women should allow whomever into their spaces based on THEIR WORD alone? Honestly, where is the line? Where is the safeguarding? Where is the respect and consideration for women and girls safety? Should a male elementary school camp counselor who says he’s non binary just be allowed to sleep in the little girls cabin? WHERE IS THE LINE?

          FYI, There are women in the global south still fighting right now for the right of sex segregated spaces. Are you going to call them transphobic?

          Men always know who is the real women, when making sure who’s voices are discounted and disregarded and who’s are elevated above the rest.

          Do you think the whole world (From China to South Africa, From England to Peru) has been stupid with regards to segregating bathrooms and school camps and locker rooms based on sex? Why? Explain?

          Why don’t you listen to prominent womens voices themselves? The ones who came before us especially? The ones on whose bones our rights are standing on? Who fought for our right to separate public bathrooms, gyms, school camps, locker rooms and sports teams which gave us the base for progress we have today? Where we can go to work without fear of being harassed while we change our tampons? Or filmed while we take a shit? Or jerked off to while we change the diaper of our child or breastfeed them? Or corner us in a gym shower and flash us? Or lock us in a stall and rape us?

          You think we are dumb about what men are like and men’s word is bond as long as a man says hes a woman its okay?

          Do you think indigenous people who even had 3rd gender (which I totally respect)….still didn’t and don’t segregate things based on sex in most cases? Do you think they’re dumb?

          There are other solutions available to what you suggest without sacrificing these hard earned rights and endangering more women. You know it.

          Heck even I support the opposite. Men deserve male bathrooms, locker rooms and gyms/saunas etc. K? No woman just claiming she is deep down inside a man, should be invading male spaces either. There has to be a line. And maybe some compromise can occur too.

          Men deserve dignity and privacy too regarding their nakedness and private parts. This also applies to gay men and gay male spaces, btw.

          I think its weird you specify heterosexual penis btw. Like it has a safe spell on it if you are gay and everyone can tell, and that gives you a pass to enter womens private spaces and youre not a physical threat anymore……yeeeeesh.

          Call me transphobic for this. I don’t care.

          • If all men were such a danger there would be gay men getting locked up 24/7 for perving out on other men in the Walmart restroom. It happens once in a blue moon, but it’s pretty rare.

            Hey, you are entitled to your opinion. My opinion is that a trans woman is not a danger in the restroom any more than any other woman.

          • Men don’t call the cops when gay men perv out on them in bathrooms. They beat the shit out of them.

            Just like trans women who neglect to tell romantic interests about their dicks or the sex they were born into until it “comes up” in a make out session.

            Then they call those “hate crimes”.

          • “Men don’t call the cops when gay men perv out on them in bathrooms. They beat the shit out of them.
            Just like trans women who neglect to tell romantic interests about their dicks or the sex they were born into until it “comes up” in a make out session.
            Then they call those “hate crimes”.

            Gee whiz, after reading that I just can’t understand why trans women would appreciate having the option to use the women’s restroom. (Note sarcasm)

          • Ruth wrote: “So you admit men with penises are a disproportionate danger”

            Actually, I was just going with your premise. If you think men are such rape monsters, why would you be so cruel as to insist on sending a trans woman, many of whom are actually very attractive women, Into a dangerous den of penises?

            Seems very heartless and selfish.

    • Lila – it seems you see yourself as the victim of something here. Do you see that you are actually cyber stalking Ruth across various platforms to “out” her. She’s a rape survivor. Let that sink in, if you can. You seem to be harassing a rape survivor who (allegedly) has said she feels uncomfortable with men and penises in her bathroom. Is this who you are?

      Ever hear of gaslighting? You’re not going to get what you’re looking for here.

      • “Men don’t call the cops when gay men perv out on them in bathrooms. They beat the shit out of them.”

        Oh OK so the threat of getting beat up is a powerful deterrent but the threat of getting arrested and sentenced to prison/branded a sex offender for life is not. ?

        Y’all do realize there is no gender detector at the door of restrooms. if a man really wanted to go in there and rape a woman he could easily do so without putting on a dress first.

        “Just like trans women who neglect to tell romantic interests about their dicks or the sex they were born into until it “comes up” in a make out session.”

        yeah like this really happens often. In your dreams, maybe.

        • Sure he could. But the dress (or just your word that youre now a woman, where is the line?) is now a sacred cow where you can claim a woman was making it all up and being transphobic. Predators and groomers are not idiots, they mostly go extreme lengths to cover themselves, become unquestionable via their identities (like priests) and attack in plain sight while they can also claim their victim is the actual bully (DARVO). They abuse the social constructs and contracts and always have. So my question is why so sure that predators arent what they are? Dedicated to access vulnerable women in vulnerable places in plain sight with complete deniability? Why do you think bathrooms and changing rooms are segregated by sex not whether you wear a dress? Do you live on this planet?

          • My take on it is that trans women should not be punished and put in danger (the danger is the risk of getting beat up by a transphobe/homophobe, not so much getting raped) because you fear some degenerate might wrongly take advantage of it and pretend to be a trans women to get access to a restroom for criminal reasons. I guess the difference is that I believe trans women can safely be treated as women, but you don’t see it that way.

            As for your attitude toward men, Do you also believe that no man should be a gynecologist or involved in any profession where they might see a woman naked because they are probably perving out in their mind and pose a huge rape threat?

            To me your attitude seems so extreme that you would probably be happy living in a traditional Muslim country where men and women are strictly segregated and women are covered from head to toe in public and can’t be outside so no man is even tempted to think a pervy thought.

            We just most definitely see things differently I think your fear is way out of proportion to reality. You seem to think I am missing the obvious. I just think we have fundamentally different perspectives on who is a threat and how big that threat truly is.

  • Lure them in with unconditional love, shower them with unprecedented generosity. Wait, you mean its isn’t about me? No! It’s about him! Fuck this!!!! Sadhvi is a liar and an accomplice. Theresa left a string of unpaid bills. Then, hid behind Swami’s robes. Your actions have been noted.

  • I thought that Ruth was in a relationship with Jesse and still stayed with him after some hard stuff. I also thought that Ruth Graham is transphobic but calls it something else, and she doesn’t believe that people have a right to decide on their own pronouns. I thought she also bought a semi- automatic weapon online from another country so that she could avoid some of the psychological evaluations one goes through when one buys a gun here. Didn’t she also but that semi- automatic weapon as a way to heal herself from her neglect and then difficulties that she felt she had at the ashram? Didn’t she bring that gun down to that beach town where all of the people from the ashram moved to after the ashram closed? Didn’t she walk up onto this guy Jesse Sweeney’s property at like 3 in morning with her semi automatic weapon? Why exactly would she go into his property? Why would she bring her semi – automatic weapon to the town where all of these people who she felt wronged her moved to??? Is she stable enough to have any gun, let alone a SEMI- AUTOMATIC GUN??? Is anyone actually vetting these people???

  • Democrat Official Arrested After Fatal Stabbing of Investigative Journalist Who Accused Him of Corruption

    A Clark Co, Nevada, Democrat official was arrested on Wednesday evening on suspicion of murdering Las Vegas Journal-Review investigative reporter Jeff German after a series of reports exposing corruption.

    Clark County Public Administrator Robert Telles was booked in Clark County Detention Center for suspicion of murder after German, 69 years old, was found dead outside his home with multiple stab wounds last Saturday.

    Telles is facing murder charges and is due in court on Thursday.

    Authorities alleged Telles, whom German had recently run investigative reports exposing corruption, had self-inflicted stab wounds when authorities arrested him following a “standoff with SWAT at his home,” according to ABC News.

    The Review-Journal reports:

    The stunning development came a day after Las Vegas police asked for the public’s help in identifying a suspect in the case. An early morning search of Telles’ home on Wednesday provided the first indication that the Friday killing might be related to German’s work exposing public wrongdoing. The investigative reporter was pursuing a potential follow-up story about Telles in the weeks before he was killed. [Emphasis added]


    German spent months reporting on the turmoil surrounding Telles’ oversight of the public administrator’s office. [Emphasis added]

    The 45-year-old Democrat lost his re-election bid in the primary after German’s findings were published. German also had recently filed public records requests for emails and text messages between Telles and three other county officials: Assistant Public Administrator Rita Reid, estate coordinator Roberta Lee-Kennett and consultant Michael Murphy. Lee-Kennett was identified in previous stories as a subordinate staffer allegedly involved in an “inappropriate relationship” with Telles. [Emphasis added]

    German, a veteran journalist of 40 years, was repeatedly attacked by Telles following the investigative reports, according to the Guardian:

    Telles, 45, a career attorney who ran for office as a Democrat, had denied the accusations and repeatedly lashed out at the reporter investigating his conduct, calling German a “bully” on Twitter and writing that a request for comment was “a veiled threat”. On his campaign website, Telles had added a section he labeled “the truth,” where he denied accusations staff members had made against him and criticized German and the Review-Journal. [Emphasis added]
    https://www.breitbart.com/crime/2022/09/08/democrat-official-arrested-after-fatal-stabbing-of-investigative-journalist/

    The Democrats have been the party of murder since the Civil War and John Wilkes Booth.unty

  • Pretty intense allegations about Jesse Sweeney. I think you need to disclose in this that you dated him and for how long because not doing so, if this is true (and I hope with my whole soul it’s not)…it damages your credibility especially with community members who know your history with him and just looks like you are just trashing an ex boyfriend in the worst way humanly imaginable. Please do not take this as not being willing to hear you, however considering something this awful requires full disclosure. This is life ruining. Did he do these things to you? Are you the ex girlfriend you speak of in this piece?

    • Yeah that part about Jesse Sweeney seemed very suspect. “It’s well known he…” insert accusation of degeneracy with no evidence to back it up whatsoever.

        • She did not say she witnessed the stuff first hand she just said it is well known etc. Now that the truth is out that she was his girlfriend for 2+ years it makes more sense that it would be “well known” — to her!

          • I’m not the only partner he abused. There are others who haven’t come out yet. What I shared so far isn’t just from me. But to protect them and me, I can’t specify what it is.

    • Yes Ruth and Jesse dated when she was 19 and first came into the community. She behaved like an obsessed teenager would and was extremely angry Jesse left to go on a trip and it resulted in him breaking up with her.

      This article is riddled with inaccurate intel.

      Like the fact Ruth didn’t live there 8 consecutive years. She lived there two separate times in an eight year span. Stretching the truth is not going to help anyone uncover the TRUTH about what has been going on.
      Blurring facts are only retraumatizing the victims.
      Please be as accurate as possible and if you don’t know for sure then don’t speak on it: let another of us fill in the gaps. We are here to help.

      Krystyn Wong lived there at the age of 22(not 14). Because she had cancer and her mother was recently recovering from her own bout with cancer. As I recall they decided to live there while Krystyn went through chemotherapy etc. By the time Krystyn was probably 25 she was hired as Swami’s Secretary.

      I don’t know what this puja assistant title is Ruth mentions (didn’t exist), but Krystyn did have many private puja (healing rituals) by Swami.
      I hope to God that woman is safe now and I pray he didn’t hurt her the way we are finding out he has hurt so many others.

      • If you’re here to help than use your real name. Jesse Sweeney for anyone who knows him knows he was into some rough things. He was caught having sex with prostitutes and smoking meth in the parking lot at the ashram. Any of you people here who claim to know something and accuse Ruth of lying and still hide your identity are pure trolls most likely from the Ashram and still sucking Michael’s dick.

      • Can confirm the Krystyn/Wendy chemo stories. This is true. They were being supported and helped.

        I’m not making Chet out to be a hero… He was/is still an egocentric, maniacal, and apparently drug-riddled a-hole. Ruth is sharing inflammatory half-truths. I’m not condoning Govind’s behavior, I’m genuinely saddened to hear about that.

        • Then elaborate on them. She can only tell her side of the story. At least she is brave enough to use her full name and stand in her truth. If you can add things, then please add them. If you saw something different then give another side.

        • I didn’t know much about Krystyn. I knew there was health issues, but I honestly couldn’t remember what exactly and wanted to protect her privacy there. Do you know exactly what went behind closed doors? Swami “helps” with strings attached. He never really helps a woman he can’t find some use for. I think you know that. Thus my concern. Shoemaker especially never did THAT MUCH for a woman he wasn’t abusing in some way.

          Which other things are not true? Please tell me. I want to know anything that is a hole in my understanding. What I can tell you is what I experienced is true. So if you want to tell me I’m a liar, please say so openly.

          If you are who I think you might be, by your writing, are you the person who said the women who got abused by Michael brought it on themselves with their own karma? It was 99 percent their fault they got raped? Because I still love you and I’m trying to forgive you for saying that.

          • To anon:

            “Incorrect. Completely different person. As a community we hold a collective memory.”

            Weird. How does that work?

            Is it like the borg?

            Or is it like when we were asked to as cult members to all write positive reviews for our yoga programs to local magazines and yoga periodicals in order to inflate the actual popularity of the institute?

      • >She behaved like an obsessed teenager would and was extremely angry Jesse left to go on a trip and it resulted in him breaking up with her.

        Thanks for the hyperbolic ad hominems in which immediately detract, so thanks anon. As well as point of clarification yeah, I was barely 19 when Jesse was 28, so basically a teenager, which I never hid from anyone. I didn’t behave like a young kid. I was a young kid. And Jesse was significantly older. Which one of us was the drug addict who got caught sleeping with prostitutes though? I actually wrote A LOT to Frank that he shortened. Which included this. It was like 8 pages. I didn’t leave out anything.

        You’re right I was very angry too. For a young person, who was a virgin before Jesse. Did you know that? It hurt. It hurt to have to face that the first person I was ever intimate with was such a dark person. It also hurt that there was such clear favoritism regarding him. It hurt to find out what he did in Nepal second hand, that he made waste to every opportunity he was given and couldn’t even reach out to a friend he promised to talk to, for help.

        >Like the fact Ruth didn’t live there 8 consecutive years

        Frank also was told about this. And nobody was hiding this. Thats why I say I was in the cult for 10 years but lived in the ashram for 8, and I think indeed its said there at one point 10 and another point 8. I was still brainwashed by it even thought they kicked me out over owing a whole $600.00, which I paid back, then they were “so compassionate” and let me back in.

        Regarding Krystyn, if true, this is good additional info.

  • Familiarize yourself with this.

    It’s how he makes women look “so crazy”. Cheap black magic parlor tricks.

    It only works if you, “let him in”.

    100% he did this to Natasha. I feel so sad for her. She was being horrifically TORTURED under every single person one of your upturned noses psychically, psychologically, physically and spiritually, and not only did you not help you all reinforced his literal cursed treatment of her. Beaming like a bunch of idiots around her brokenness when she arrived home for more abuse.

    I know that everyone wants to wave a dismissive hand to “black magic”. Newsflash it’s real. Way of life in both Haiti AND India…. particularly where SC and his Foo Foo Dog spent the last several years of their “study” for “your benefit”. Assam is literally the black magic capitol of India. It is not unusual in the least to find human body parts near that temple. Human sacrifice is still practiced there. That’s a fact. They try to deny it but when one continuously finds bodies littered about…. you know? This is the temple Sharon was crowned “Sadhvi”. Who gave her those sannyasas and what is THAT lineage? Sure as shit isn’t Rudi. Can’t find much on him and you won’t. Certainly Aghori. The Ganges is near there, where the Aghoris wait for the bodies to float down and fish them out for their rituals.

    MANY more where this article came from if anyone out there is actually intellectually curious. It will be if no interest to the institutional retards or weak as shits.

    https://www.deccanherald.com/amp/national/east-and-northeast/human-sacrifice-suspected-in-kamakhya-temple-741584.html

    Yes, all cults use some form of mind control. This is just supernatural hypnotism. Funny… I always thought of Liz… wtf was she doing walking around all those hours? Didn’t call anyone or text anyone but had her phone? She ended up going to some weird places almost as though she was being led from place to place. You all know damn well none of that shit makes sense but you are such weak selfish people you will allow her daughters and grandkids live with a suicide stigma forever. What could I have done? What did I do wrong? She was cooking, caretaking, working. People with dementia don’t do that. Most people who threaten suicide are not the ones who do it.

    She could have effortlessly if she was sick again arranged for assisted suicide. Quiet, peaceful. Let someone just say it. Liz would never deliberately go out as a “floater” which when Sadhvi will assure you is about the most gruesome way to be found. Water does horrific things to a human body. Period. She was too considerate.

    Not saying she might not have ended up taking her own life, but not like that. Ever. Fuck you all for playing along with that. She fed you and loved you with her whole heart for decades. The easiest person in the world to take out is someone with a history of depression. You realize that, correct? You ever even allow that word to exit your mouth once and it’s remembered and you are randomly found dead? it’s just assumed. I say this because if you notice in Sharon’s interview she mentions people who go
    on “walkabouts” or have “dementia”. Was also triggered because that awful cheer she has when she speaks about finding the dead? She was EXCITED when she announced in that class her dog found Liz. Talked about it with several people. Like a swaggering detective that solved the case, not like humans behave when a loved one is missing and presumed dead. No tears. Not a hint of sadness. Clinical, cold, ghoulish.

    Sharon Ward is his true primary partner. Not Gretchen. They don’t have sex, they have something much worse.

    They hunt and feed together.

    THAT is their sex.

    She will be the first to tell you “If you fk with Swamiji I know where to hide a body where it will never be found”,

    Please, tell us more. Most of us suspect there has to be at least ONE escort out there that wasn’t lucky enough to wake up from being choked unconscious.

    Someone still in Portland needs to look at cold cases going back to before Sharon started her favorite doggy hobby.

    At this point I think we’ve given him way too much credit as just being a greedy pervert. So much more once you get the initial scab off. That’s the kind of people you should be looking at. I don’t think he would have just taken women off the street. Rapport would have to be built, to keep his secret safe. A fluffer. I imagine Monica was really good at it hanging out at Fantasy’s making friends in the dildo section. They didn’t have the internet back then, had to be creative. Jen has all the fluffing skills of a toddler when it first attempts to pet cats nice. Awkward. Hell she would try to recruit patients. Dumb ass.

    They would be pretty and he prefers them thin. Clearly VD is not a deal breaker but they would need to at least appear like they don’t have it.

    There is a reason there are strangulation laws. It’s horribly dangerous. Monica, that’s where that maniacal blinking comes from. One too many oxygen starves to the brain.

    https://www.pcadv.org/policy-center/pennsylvania-laws/strangulation-law/

    And killing someone with their own hand is the most cowardly and despicable way to take someone out imaginable.

    Here’s to the ones that got away. ❤️

    https://www.thehinduportal.com/2017/08/vashikaran-black-magic-psychic-powers.html?m=1

    • Shadow, please let us not make humor at this moment of history passing. The queen is dead. She is not your queen or my queen, but she was a lot of people’s queen.

      I thank you for your gay friendly statement about Elton John. He may have been queen to more men than Elizabeth.

      I expect a new song from Elton John any moment, who is a lovely singer and composer, about the queen’s death.

      I remember when Diana died, John, who’s career at the time was nearly dead, wrote a huge hit song on the spot and revived his career. God, when Diana died and his hit song made the charts, I never saw a man so completely altered. His hair turned quite gold from grief.

      But I believe we should never speak ill of the dead.

      I remember when another friend of mine made a quip about the passing of a leading national political figure.

      He said the person “drank so much booze, if they cremated her… her body would burn for three days.” He got a lot of media condemnation for that.

      • You are certainly referring to the Latin proverb “de mortuis nil nisi bene”. However, one should know the actual meaning, but this is not reflected in the translation.

        Latin proverb: mortuis nihil nisi bene
        nil (=nihil)

        Meaning often inaccurately translated as: Of the dead (one should) only (speak) good things. correctly translated it should be: Of the dead nothing except in a good way, which allows the following interpretations: 1) If one does not know anything good to say about a dead person, one should remain silent, or: 2) One may also criticize the deceased, but in a fair way (since they can no longer defend themselves).

        • De mortuis. Translated from the Latin, this means “about the dead.”

          A British tabloid writer told me, from a legal point of view, “You can’t libel the dead.” I think that may be true. But I wonder if you wrote falsehoods about a dead person and damaged their legacy to the extent that it harmed his estate, could the heirs sue?

          But since Latin is a dead language, can you libel anyone if you write it in Latin?

          I appreciate your comment and I agree.

          • You can slander anyone in Latin as long as it is not understood or it is noticed in some other way. That’s the advantage, because very few people understand Latin properly. But you reach very few people who understand it, so the effect of slander is very limited. But I never slander anyone, no matter in what language.

      • I know so much, so you don’t need to explain so much to me. But for the others who should not know, they should be allowed to know.

        “Barbara Bush drank so much booze, if they cremated her … her body would burn for three days.” — Roger Stone

        Trump pal Roger Stone calls Barbara Bush a ‘vindictive drunk,’ loses GOP speaking gig.

      • Frank:
        You clearly do not know how wicked the Royal Family is.
        I have an internet friend who was a 15 year old girl in England in the seventies.
        I will not give out her name.
        She had to go in the hospital for an appendectomy.
        She was placed in the adult section.
        She asked the nurse if she could be transferred to the children’s section so she could meet Jimmy Savile, a BBC TV personality.
        Savile was popular with children and young people and was a big friend of the Royal Family.
        Prince Phillip, Prince Charles and Lady Diana all loved Jimmy Savile.
        Savile was Untouchable because of his ties to the Royal Family.
        And elected politicians in Britain also protected Savile.
        The nurse refused my friend’s request for a transfer stating that Savile was an Evil Man.
        That nurse risked her job to prevent a child from being raped.
        After Savile died in 2011 the full story came out and police investigated finding out that the Untouchable Jimmy Savile had raped about 400 children.
        And the Royal Family protected him all of the way.

        Don’t speak ill of the dead?
        I can not speak anything but ill of the whole British Royal Family.

          • You misquoted Shadow:

            He wrote, “I have an internet friend who was a 15 year old girl in England in the seventies.”

            You quoted him as “I have an internet friend who is a 15 year old girl in England.”

            She’s not 15 now. as 15 in the 1970s.

            She’s Shadow State’s friend now – she is in her 60s.

            I also have evidence that Shadow and her rarely communicated on the internet in the 1970s – other than an occasional Zoom, Facebook messenger or email.

    • Speaking of a woman who led a lifetime of covering up for countless perverted men with a taste for young flesh. Hope it’s the end of the monarchy entirely.

    • A deeply sad moment. Even for an old republican like me. Having witnessed the continuous changes of federal government in the US and France, I think there have been benefits to having such a benign monarch as head of state. Private Eye called her ‘Brenda’ and I always loved that, it really fits.

      Rest In Peace Elizabeth Regina, and our second Elizabethan Age.

  • Another very powerful testimony from a newly-brave Survivor. I read with great interest and note the similarities to other groups Frank Report has covered. Hoping for justice for the Survivors who sorely deserve it.

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