Allison Mack’s Complete Pre-Sentencing Letter to the Judge and to ‘All Those Who Have Been Harmed By My Actions”

Unlike Clare Bronfman, who wrote just prior to her sentencing that she would not disavow Keith Raniere, a move that possibly cost her several extra years in prison, Allison Mack is writing in the opposite direction.  This letter from Mack denounces Raniere and is clearly intended for her sentencing judge, Nicholas G. Garaufis and her victims whom she undoubtedly hopes will read it and perhaps lighten up on their victim impact statements they plan to read at her sentencing hearing.

This letter is the final document included in her sentencing memorandum.  

Recent photo of Allison Mack taken in late May, 2021.

By Allison Mack

To those who have been harmed by my actions, To this date, it has been over three years since I last communicated with most of you.

This period of isolation has been the most devastating, but transformative time of my life.

Because of the court’s decision to allow me to remain on home-confinement, I have had the opportunity to be alone with my thoughts in the most supportive and loving environment. Such an opportunity has offered me the time and strength I needed to confront the darkest parts of myself and come to terms with the pain my actions have inflicted on so many people I love, which is the reason for this letter.

It is now of paramount importance to me to say, from the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry. I threw myself into the teachings of Keith Rainire with everything I had.

Keith Raniere speaks with his DOS slave Allison Mack

I believed, whole-heartedly, that his mentorship was leading me to a better, more enlightened version of myself. I devoted my loyalty, my resources, and, ultimately, my life to him. This was the biggest mistake and greatest regret of my life.

I am sorry to those of you that I brought into Nxivm. I am sorry I ever exposed you to the nefarious and emotionally abusive schemes of a twisted man. I am sorry that I encouraged you to use your resources to participate in something that was ultimately so ugly. I do not take lightly the responsibility I have in the lives of those I love and I feel a heavy weight of guilt for having misused your trust, leading you down a negative path. I am sorry to those of you whom I spoke to in a harsh or hurtful way.

At the time, I believed I was helping. I believed in tough love and thought it was the path to personal empowerment. I was so confused. I never want to be someone who is considered mean, but those aspects of my humanity have been revealed in all of this; it has been devastating to reconcile.

I have experienced overwhelming shame as I have worked to accept and understand all that went on and all that I chose. There were times I was not sure I would make it through this alive, the pain was so crippling. That said, I know that coming out the other side, I am a better, kinder woman because of this. I know I cannot heal the pain my betrayal has caused to you and your loved ones, but I can promise you that your hurt has not gone unseen and acknowledging this has changed me to my core.

Allison Mack with India Oxenberg
Allison Mack with her slave India Oxenberg,

I also want to apologize to all the friends and loved ones I have hurt throughout this process who were not involved in Nxivm. I know many of you fought hard to show me the truth about Nxivm and Keith, but I didn’t listen.

I pushed you away and silenced myself toward you when you were trying to save my life. I am sorry I was so stubborn. I am sorry I was blind to your care and deaf to your pleas. I wish with everything in me that I had chosen differently, but I cannot change the past.

I lied to you, again and again, in order to protect the delusion I was so deeply committed to believing. I know that the sacred trust I broke cannot be reinstated without forgiveness and a significant passage of time.

While I desperately miss my friends, I understand if you choose not to invest in a future that includes me. However, I hope you will accept this sincere apology and know that I will hold all of you close to my heart for the rest of my life, even if we never speak again.

The list of those harmed by the collateral damage of my destructive choices continues to grow as I become more and more aware of how my choices have affected those around me.

I am grateful that I have made it through this process alive and that I was stopped when I was.

I have the court, my family, my therapist, and a few amazing friends to thank for this.

Please know that I am dedicated to spending my life working to mend the hearts I broke and continuing to transform myself into a more loving and compassionate woman.

Thank you for taking the time to read this letter. I hope it offers at least a little bit of peace and closure as this horrific chapter comes to an end.

 

 


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  • This is, like others have said here, a non-apology. More concerned about herself that what she did to others. Lamenting over everything SHE has lost and what SHE has gone through. Pathetic really

  • When women, real adult women are in a bad relationship, they pick up and go.

    And these women are not millionaires like Allison Mack was.

    American music is filled with songs of women who leave bad relationships.

  • Reading the statements, you would think Alison is something of a saint really. I am looking forward to the response of the judge when he tears this presented image apart bit by bit.

    • Agree completely. This non-apology is disgraceful. Mack seems mainly concerned about how SHE has suffered.

      Not a word about the branding or the extortion she enthusiastically committed.

      Her victims get the least mention, and she seems to think a “so sorry” is sufficient amends. She had these people BRANDED for chrissake.

      This letter is nothing more than self-justification with the most perfunctory apology tucked in. I too hope Judge Garaufis rips into it in his sentencing statement later this week. If anything, Mack’s letter proves she has learned nothing and is essentially the same amoral person she was in Clifton Park.

  • The Hollywood Reporter
    Allison Mack Speaks Out Days Before Sentencing: “This Was the Biggest Mistake and Regret of My Life”
    The former ‘Smallville’ actress addressed “those who have been harmed by my actions” in her letter on Saturday.

    By Trilby Beresford

    JUNE 26, 2021 3:16PM

    https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/general-news/allison-mack-speaks-out-days-before-sentencing-nxivm-cult-1234974428/

    Times Union

    NXIVM defector Allison Mack now calls Keith Raniere a ‘twisted man’

    Robert Gavin
    June 26, 2021
    Updated: June 26, 2021 8:17 p.m.

    https://www.timesunion.com/nxivm/article/NXIVM-defector-Allison-Mack-now-calls-Keith-16276677.php

  • Is Allison Mack one of the few people to have deeply, deeply benefited from covid?

    And by that I mean delaying her sentencing.

    If Allison did not have these 3 years (and/or a lot of money to be put up to keep her out of prison while awaiting trial and this coming court date) according to her attorneys’ entire argument – then Allison would not be deserving of “no prison” time.

    Every single reason for “time served” the attorneys list is based on what Allison has done on (not really confined) home confinement. School. All those glowing letters from friends (who clearly she spent time with) and her parents, siblings. Therapy.

    This is privilege. This is the inequity that true advocates of the justice system would fight to change. Not that booty dancing free Raniere garbage.

  • She never mentions how she is sorry for what she did. She never mentions Nicole and having helped to traffic her. She never mentions she is sorry for manipulating women to be with a man who wanted to traffic them.

    This is a bad apology because she is not stating she is sorry for what the exact actions she did. The letter is so vague. it sounds like something you would write to apologize to your friend in high school after going out with her bf or something superficial. Not after you helped traffic women.

    Alisson seems very superficial. I am sorry i wanted to root for her. But this really shows she is not deep. I doubt she has reflected on what she did. She was in for 3 years and this was as deep as she could go with an apology?

    • I am curious on what the experts say about letters like this.

      My take is a bizarre dance. You have to say your sorry, show contrition, and show how trying to make amends. But more you point out how you screwed up, the more likely a judge (or really anyone) would just focus on the laundry list of bad behavior so you don’t do the laundry list. Its a weird little dance that demands honesty but really does not reward honesty.

  • It is worth counting the pronouns to give clarity on where one’s attention is.

    In Allison’s letter, she referenced herself (“I, me, my”, etc.) approximately 97 times.

    She referenced the victims (“you, your”, or family & friends she hurt) approximately 23 times.

    Thus, in one of the most important letters of her life, she talked about herself four times more than her victims.

    • OMG, you want to talk PRONOUNS in your endless, bloodthirsty quest to condemn an innocent girl for the same and far worse activities others with far more sinister intent and selfish motive in the doing of are being praised for?! Really?!

      O.K. then, how about the fact that in the shockingly submissive, embarrassingly desperate texts Allison allegedly wrote to KAR expressing her thoughts after her first gruesome, threesome experience, her capital “I” went to a little “i” in every single paragraph she wrote?

      My sister Gina told me that KAR attempted to lure her into a threesome and IDK if he ever succeeded there but after much discussion and soul searching she finally concluded that Keith was proposing and pressuring her into 3-way sexual unions to NEGATE and DIMINISH her role in their “relationship,” to put the girls on par with each other far beneath HIM…to that effect. Turn their big I into a little i, so to speak. And she told me KAR was making a science of pairing or triangulating the harem in that way, building a human (inhumane) pyramid beneath him in slave levels sexual conditioning. (Of course, this is hearsay being that Gina is dead and all. Plus, you know, I’m supposed to be psycho and all. …And, you know, should be dead by now, too.)

      Now, IDK if there were other texts from Allison using that little “i” or if it ever became a NX thing, but it’s well worth looking into and I know why. When my ex, Jeff Apple, and I were consulting with the same nerds (including Steve Jobs) who were developing MAC personal computer products – the “i” phone etc., for our own company (Da Vinci Time & Space) Gina was living with us in Malibu and I recall we had some lively discussion with nerdy guests about the big I vs. the little i in the English language that, as it turns out, was shared with KAR and other ESPIANs via the key loggers they had on our puters, etc.

      So if there’s any patent claim being made by KAR or Toni Natalie or any ex-NX crook re: the i-mac or i-phone…or, IDK, did KAR try to patent the menage a tois mind-control methods he developed, too?

      Just one of a billion other reasons, iMO, Allison Mack must be: “Allie, Allie, Um, fum, FREEEEEEEEEED!”

      …Seriously, guys, PRONOUNS?!

  • Good has triumphed! And you are a living miracle, Allison Mack, to have survived what some before you so tragically did not.

    I’m speaking, of course, of my sister, Gina Hutchinson, and the other “Lost (HA!) Women of NXIVM.”

    My prayers and blessings will be with you, your family and your true friends as you (we all) continue to learn and heal no matter what obstacles may lie ahead.

    The greatest lesson I learned so far in this shocking epic, myself, is that there is only one clear path and it appears you found it: FREE WILL!

    I hope and pray you are not further imprisoned behind any manmade bars but know in my heart you are well on your way to that real, ‘authentic’ freedom you yearned for for so long and I trust you will help light that path for any entrapped in the role of acting out another’s deluded contortions of reality or in danger of “taking the fall” down such a slippery slope as you barely survived alive!

    May you meet your true self there, the authentic Allison Mack you were born to be.

    God bless you and send earth angels to guide you along the way.

    • You are right. it is a blessing she is alive. Regardless of her sentence, this is an opportunity to learn to be free and find who she really is. Thank god she made it out alive

  • A) Allison was hardly “isolated” during home confinement. She was surrounded by the people who love her most. In a beautiful home. She has therapists. A legal team. Siblings. Old friends that she hasn’t seen in years. Allison has been out and about in the world.

    Allison was actually less “isolated” in the recent past than during her Nxivm days. Albany was isolating and insular. Allison was kept isolated through all of her cult secrets.

    Even her mom wrote something along those lines to the court.

    I think this was probably the safest feeling, easiest, most enjoyable, least rapey, healthiest daily life Allison has lived in years. Not the punitive hell that she is describing in her letter.

    B) pay the people that you brought into Nxivm back their “resources”. At least TRY. $50.00 a week. Whatever. Then it rings true.

    C) lots if “i” and “me” statements. Her feelings. Her experience. Not enough specific acknowledgement to named individuals. It was more than “harsh words” Allison. It was pimping. It was sexually explicit blackmail. It was burning a cult leaders initials into their flesh. And lying about it.

    Being “misguided” doesn’t account for enough of her criminal actions.

    Intent to do good is not a legal excuse.

    Some serial killers state they are, “helping” prostitutes, by murdering them. They say they, “saved” the prostitute from a bad life.

    That’s “tough love” too. But does that make it okay?

  • Allison: Forger about loving the people you hurt and just concentrate on mending yourself. They don’t need your love. They need healing like you. From somebody else; like you. Try to find your own Self.

  • CourtListener

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    United States v. Raniere (1:18-cr-00204)
    District Court, E.D. New York

    Last Updated: June 26, 2021, 6:24 a.m. EDT

    Assigned To: Nicholas Garaufis

    Referred To: Vera M. Scanlon

    Date Filed: April 19, 2018

    Date of Last Known Filing: June 25, 2021

    DOCKET ENTRIES
    PARTIES AND ATTORNEYS
    Defendant
    Allison Mack
    REPRESENTED BY

    Gabriela Ruiz
    (305) 967-6100
    New York
    201 S. Biscayne Blvd.
    Suite 1900
    Miami, FL 33131

    ATTORNEY TO BE NOTICED

    PRO HAC VICE

    Matthew Menchel
    (212) 488-1200
    Kobre & Kim LLP
    800 Third Ave.
    Floor 6
    New York, NY 10022

    ATTORNEY TO BE NOTICED

    Sean Stephen Buckley
    (212) 488-1253
    Kobre & Kim LLP
    800 Third Ave.
    New York, NY 10022

    ATTORNEY TO BE NOTICED

    LEAD ATTORNEY

    Steven Gary Kobre
    (212) 488-1202
    Fax: (212) 488-1222
    Kobre & Kim LLP
    800 Third Ave.
    New York, NY 10022

    ATTORNEY TO BE NOTICED

    Susan Gail Kellman
    (718) 783-8200
    Fax: (718) 783-8226
    Susan G. Kellman
    25 Eighth Ave.
    Brooklyn, NY 11217

    ATTORNEY TO BE NOTICED

    LEAD ATTORNEY

    William F. McGovern
    (212) 488-1200
    Fax: (212) 488-1220
    Kobre & Kim LLP
    800 Third Ave.
    Floor 6
    New York, NY 10022

    ATTORNEY TO BE NOTICED

    Description Disposition
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1349 and 3551 et seq. – Wire Fraud Conspiracy(3s) None
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1594(b) and 3551 et seq. – ATTEMPT TO ESTABLISH PEONAGE, SLAVERY, INVOLUNTARY SERVITUDE, HUMAN TRAFFICKING(3) None
    Pending Count 18:1962(d), 1963(a) and 3551 et seq. – Racketeering(2ss) None
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1594(c) and 3551 et seq – Forced Labor Conspiracy)(2s) None
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1594(c) and 3551 et seq. – CONSPIRACY TO COMMIT SEX TRAFFICKING OF CHILDREN BY FORCE, FRAUD, OR COERCION(2) None
    Pending Count 18:1962(d), 1963(a) and 3551 et seq. – Racketeering Conspiracy(1ss) None
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1962(d), 1963 and 3551 et seq – Racketeering Conspiracy(1s) None
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1591(a)(1), 1591(a)(2), 1591(b)(1), 1594(a), 2 and 3551 et. seq. – SEX TRAFFICKING OF CHILDREN OR BY FORCE, FRAUD OR COERCION(1) None
    Pending Count 18:1594(a), 159l(b)(l), 2 and 3551 et seq. – Attempted Sex Trafficking – Jane Doe 8(10ss) None
    Pending Count 18:1591(a)(1), 1591(a)(2), 1591(b)(1), 2 and 3551 et seq. – Sex Trafficking – Jane Doe 5(9ss) None
    Pending Count 18:1594(c), 1591(b)(1) and 3551 et seq. – Sex Trafficking Conspiracy(8ss) None
    Pending Count 18:1349 and 3551 et seq. – Wire Fraud Conspiracy(7ss) None
    Pending Count 18:1594(b) and 3551 et seq. – Forced Labor Conspiracy(6ss) None
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1594(a), 1591(b)(1), 2 and 3551 et seq. – Attempted Sex Trafficking – Jane Doe 8(6s) None
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1591(a)(1), 1591(a)(2), 1591(b)(1), 2 and 3551 et seq. – Sex Trafficking – Jane Doe 5(5s) None
    Pending Count Title 18, United States Code, Sections 1594(c), 1591(b)(1) and 3551 et seq. – Sex Trafficking Conspiracy(4s) None
    Complaint Assigned to: Judge Nicholas G. Garaufis Referred to: Magistrate Judge Vera M. Scanlon None
    Highest Offense Level (Opening): Felony

    Highest Offense Level (Terminated): None

  • Allison Mack failed to mention how she took two college classes in Gender Studies and her class mates were so upset with her Sex Trafficking that they asked her to leave.

    If she wants to make the world a better place she should keep her ideas to herself and slowly fade away.
    Young women do not need her help to be independent and empowered.

    • Sometimes, the last hope anyone has is the hope they can pass their experience on, so that other do not commit the same mistakes. There is value in tragedy as long as we learn from it and pass the experience on to others.

      This hope is fundamental to human existence, it is the hope that keeps society alive. Allison needs this hope just as much as you, I or anyone.

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